Life's a bitch

2009-01-30T23:28:00.000+08:00

2009-01-30T23:21:00.002+08:00

Updates :

Posted to : Ite clementi

NOTICE :

Deleting friendster.
Changing blog url.
*tckaires

2009-01-29T00:10:00.002+08:00

lols..cute la cyg ni..
sempat agy kiss..
tebal lak tu bibir =P

aniwayss..

HAPPY 2MTHS dearest!
i love u . mwaaaaaacks!
i promise no more lies ! [:
nor empty promises.

2009-01-28T22:31:00.002+08:00

My cousin Jeff asked me a sensitive qns..
a qns i've been trying to avoid..

About e others knwg about me&raz..
siapa e others?
well only who knows will understand k.
esp mimin &jeff..

I tot about this even before e r/s
i knew dat it was impossible to avoid..
but i cudn't help falling in love.

falling in love is sumthing we don't plan to do..
its sumthing dat just happened naturally..

am i gonna lose someone i love again?
am i gonna paksa diri jst for other's happiness?
am i gonna pretend i don't care & just move on?

like i did with e last relationship?

e day i do one of those is gonna come..
& i can't stand it
but to know im gonna lie again..
dat im gonna hurt e one i love..
& im gonna leave him broken hearted

i dunno wad to do..
but i don't wanna go thru it all again..
my heart feels like breaking into pieces..

b..i din mean to do all these..
i din want these too..haisk..

2009-01-27T21:19:00.007+08:00

Finally we meet up

after a looooong timee

my kembars...y kembars?
coz we are all of..
same age.same perangai.same belo.
sooo we + my sis . hehe
headed to e-hub.

& caught INKHEART

Its quite good.
i rate it 7stars[:
i tink mimin enjoy-ed herself e most.

coz she was pratically so into e movie.*winks*

afterwhich we were lost.
as in lost in wad to do nxt
so we rounding satu pasir ris..
thn decided to head to my crib
yes another round of movie marathon
this time a horror flick..
"Sumpah Pocong Di sekolah"

lagi2 citer indon.
it was scary ok & unexpected gtu..
me&mimin was behind e pillows all e way.LOLS.
thn by 10 they headed home.

& oh yea..
bad news..
dearest nye kitten is no longer under his care
how sad is dat = '[

& ps ;
e countdown thingy for me&dearest 2mth is wrong..
irritating..da btlkan tapi masey same

our 2th mthsary is on e 29th..
2more days !!

2009-01-27T11:26:00.002+08:00

Dedicated to dearest love..

i knw things seems unclear ryte now for u

countless times u gave me chances.

but i keep mis-using it
now its hard for u to trust me

blame it on me
im sorry baby i din mean to
things are a mess all thanks to me..

no matter how bad i hurt u

u forgive me in e end..
i find myself dumb sumtimes

coz i don't show u dat i appreciate u
instead i keep disappointing u

all these time u were e one who picked me up ..
when i was in pieces..
u glued me back togetherr

when i had noone..
u were there
when i was in tears
u were there to comfort me
when i was angry
u calmed me down..
when i was happy

u were there to share my joy

instead all i ever did

was to hurt u..

keep involving myself with e past..

lying to u..

i lied coz i can't bear to see u sad..

i can't bear to loose u..

but by lying i also lost ur trust...

darling..i really do love u..

ppl judge u..

but i know u best b..

u're different.u're one of a kind

& definetly better thn my last..
noone can compare to u..

coz i love u..

& i still need u by my side

Forgive me cyg

i will make it up to u..u will see..
Mwaaaacks !

2009-01-25T19:49:00.004+08:00

So dat's baby..
dearest nye kitten
how cute..

decided to upload a video here
*requested by rizakitty.here u go beb.hehe

blue eyess lagi!
*meltss*

2009-01-24T21:37:00.002+08:00

In e noon headed out to aunt's house with lil sis..
she had her study lessonss while i did ntg
so pratically i started to feel bored

thn dearest was mad at me for a moment.

i booked e wrong pratical date -_-"

so i made him wasted his time gg to e place.

sorry dearest din mean to..haisk.

so after all dat..i was bored..

& ended up dozing off on the couch
sis woke me up & off back home

Now dearest is out again

with his members ..
gone to johor..
will only be back by tmrw mrng i guess
lepak2 & stuffs.
guys will be guys..

so guess i will be spending e nite alone today
oh wells..

dunno why but i feel kinda irritated
& for no reason.
something's wrong with me.lols.

2009-01-23T13:43:00.002+08:00

this outing is planned out by me&zura..
soo we expect these following to come...

Fana..Sri..Khai..Bal..Shadiq..Nad..Iffah..Midzi..Amsyar..Celia..Yan2..
& etc..
those interested pls confirm by end of this mth..
once confirmed.pls tag me or azura[:

2009-01-23T11:26:00.002+08:00

How cute is dat!
hehe..dat's dearest lil kitty
his lil sis brought e cute fellow home.
gees! soooo cuteeee ! geraaam seyss !

u knw i was so eager to meet e kitten

padahal me & dearest was otf..
thn he like told me..

Him : eh eh eh ..
me: nape b?
Him : tkder adk i bwk kucing alek.
Me : bedek ah..tipu seyss
Him : btl la..tk cayer lak..
Me : yelaa tuu...
Him : jap ey..*calling his mother asking camne nk agy kitten tu bunyik*
tibe...*meoww meoww meoww *

tu part i was already screaming..omg so cute seysss !
cair aku dgr
da la aku suke sgt dgn kucing.
esp kittens!
teros ape lagi..
i keep pestering dearest to bring e kitten to bedok -_-"
ah2..gtu tk sabar sey aku.haha
but oh wells..nemind
nxt time i gonna dearest home again to meet his kitten *
weeeeee *~

2009-01-22T22:31:00.002+08:00

*pssst i like this picture of u. hawwt ok*

Aniwaysss
i steal ur gmbr for a reason ok beb..
& its coz u finally turn 17 todaaaay!!
*weeeeeee!! *
sooo since i have no present to give..
i wanna give a simple shoutout[:

Happy 17th bdaee rizakitty !
may all ur wishes be fullfilled

& most impt all e best in ur future !
PheeewwwiT !
a step closer to e legal world.
hahaha.

all e times we had will never be erased ok.
bitter or sweet forever in my heart..
awwwwwwww*hahaa..kk
& yes not to forget last long with mr boyfiee yea
*winksss *

2009-01-21T14:31:00.002+08:00

I really tot things wud work out..

seeing u drunk e other day
getting urself wasted instead of venting ur anger on me...
i cudn't stop but shed tears.
real tears.
i was really moved.
i started to feel guilty
& at e moment i shed those tears
i made a promise to myself
to make our r/s work out.
for e better

now a new prob muncul.
u gg Detention barack?
im just praying for u here cyg..
hoping ur encik let u off again..
watever it is..
i will wait
even if its for more thn a 1week or 30days.
believe me.
i love u

*edited *

ok..now everything is settled..
no db..no nutink.

*pheww*

its now only me.
gosh am i e worst gf ever..
i hurt him over&over again..
& now i regret..
i really wanna take back all e words i saed..

now all i have to do is prove to him..
b i knw im nt as perfect as u imagined me to be.
but i really am i trying..

2009-01-20T16:58:00.002+08:00

Mouth looks too weird. so i edited dat part.lols*

So i juz came back frm school
i mean i went to school to collect my yearbook[:
with dearest razkalkus <3s
so nice of him.
though he's tired & alll frm werk.
he still went down bedok frm woodlands
awwww..so sweet my darling!

Had lunch at kopitiam.
i had nasi campur
& dearest his carrot cake.
da makan anyak2 aru realise its kicap
teros panic-ed.ape da b
kan there's like a saying..
kalo ade luke jgn mkn kicap..nti tanda..
so yeaa.he was all worried nti tanda tk lawa.
da mcm ppm lak *rolls eyes*

so ard 4pm we parted ways coz he has to take motor prac.
tadi die confident sey ckp.
Him : B i sebelum u skola..sblm april i da ade motor
Me : waah.biar btl.mcm confident jer.
Him : yes.da cnfrmnye.

lols* si dekni ni..btl2 confident seys.
tkpela cyg..u tkde motor pon tkper..
masey ley naik public transport kan *winks*

k la !
nk tlg mummy uat kueh tart!
yummmy !

2009-01-19T14:15:00.004+08:00

So i revamped my blog.
Finally.
actually i killed almost 1hr of my -idunnowatodo- time.[:
so YEAAH!

sitting at home is getting restless
can't wait to get e results
hopefully i get through yea
*fingers crossed*
can't wait to start school too
coz seriously

its restless just sitting at home doing ntg.

so..let me se..
my choices are..
[1] Hospitality Operations - ITE clementi
[2] Events Management - ITE bishan
[3] Leisure & Travel - ITE clementi
[4] Customer Contact service - ITE clementi
[5] B.S Admin - ITE bishan

realyy really hoping for e #1st choice..

Tmrw wud be heading out wif dearest to met ano
yey!he got an off day[:

getting my yearbook frm her

a gazillion thks yea beb!
give me comments on e new layout yea.

2009-01-16T11:06:00.004+08:00

I tot of revamping my blog & all.
But will do it on another day
Gonna prepare nasi goreng for dearest family today[:

Dearest & me
have been arguing lately
over stupid stuffs..
first & foremost...
dearest im sorry.
i knw we bth keras kepala
so sometimes we just need time to really TALK it out

seriously loosing u will be my loss
coz its hard to find a guy like u
no one i knew has been as sincere as u..
so baby, pls stp thinking negative yea..
cheer up[:
im always here for u *winks*

& my dearest frenss!
nana&wawaaaaa
i miss korang bangeeeetss!
nxt mth aytes..
meet up soon.
set?
hehe.mwaaaakcs'

2009-01-15T23:10:00.002+08:00

Having second tots of changing msn act.
ni la b..u suro tukar msn.
nti semua complain ckp i asyik tukar2 msn
well i knw he has a reason why he wnts me to change it.
guys & their fikiran bukan2..
ok2..jeles tanda syg =P

wellss..
i will think about it again..
ukan tk sanggop k.

& imeem all freakin anoying la
aku tkley upload lagu kat friendster!
it doesn't play.damnitt.

headed to vivo with family just now
actualy just e parents & me.
thn tis mat salleh guy.
so e gatalans.
haha.no more to say la..
smpi bbl psl nk move in semuaa.
mepek2 la.haha..kekek2..
me & my mum ketawakan aje.

& b e deal is on k on friday!haaha

2009-01-14T22:07:00.002+08:00

Dearest..
dun't give up & cheer up ok.
there will be another timee.
even u don't manage to get e motor license

i will still love u e same okeh!hehe[:

Niwayss..
chatted with zie-babypinkie..
peh la jauh ite clementii..

ley mati sek ginie kalo ari2 g skola
& im planning to meet ab & lia soon
nk tgk dier babyboi [:

im feeling restless with s.hair.

but dearest prefer me with s.hair
i prefer curly..but sometimes
its so difficult to maintain..
so how?
botak licin?ok go!hahaa.

2009-01-13T10:28:00.002+08:00

Well..

so how did i do for o'levels?
well sng kater
im heading for ITE

wait wait.
no don't be sorry for me..
but i am disappointed with a lil mix of relieved
coz i actually got e courses i've been aiming for there
Hospitality Operations
& Event management [:
Hopefully this time i can move on to poly after ITE.amin.
im nt giving up yet.

so pray for me dat i will get e courses i applied for
its either i will be in Ite clementi or Ite Bishan [april intake]

2009-01-12T11:45:00.002+08:00

2 more hours to go ..
i wonder how my results will turn out to be like..
BUT
all i know da too late untk menyesal.
rytes?

soooo wadever it is i will take it with a sense of pride[:

& YEA..all e best to olevel candidates too yea.

2009-01-10T19:06:00.004+08:00

Just some phonecalls
& aku tga sot!
ppl pls laa..
just keep wad u c to urself
i dun wanna know any more stuffs..haisk

Niwayss.
baking pizza tmrww
helping mum out

meeting dearest
b i miss u soo much
i really feel like crying..haisss
why isssit so hard for me.

2009-01-08T23:02:00.002+08:00

So finally its official!
e release of GCE O'level results will be on e 12th Jan[monday]
soo all e best to e rest too yeaaa [:

Temasek poly hopefully [:
well dad asked me to go for e tp open house

will tink bout it ferst
kla.dat's all for today
having some probs editing dearest's profile

lagu tk kuaa

irritating.ark!

2009-01-06T12:02:00.004+08:00

Dat's Sarah.
pure chinese but speaks malay
sempat jer ktrg ambek gmbr dlm toilet
since my mr bf malas nk ambek gmbr dgn i!
hmfpth!

Aniways plan didn't turn out as planned
sorry b.
& sorry ano susahkan ko.

So instead headed to dearest home
met his mama.
at first glance i tot tu kakak dier siol..
so mude la ok.

ate ayam over his place
thn headed out back again to play pool to waste time
yey! i mng ! bluekss =P
haha..
no la dearest was just being too kind sngajer make me win

thn ard 5 headed to meet rizal & sarah
plan tk jadi coz bth us girls gt curfew

soo we headed to safra instead
had a game of bowling
kecoh kecoh

e winner was rizal
tkpe2 agy die chance
mentang2 esok g NS
all e best there yea '

& im heading to mysia again tmrw
will be back e night itself
so miss me yeaa!hahaa

p;s - nxt outing nk g mane ey cyg?hehe

2009-01-04T22:00:00.002+08:00

Stop whining about wad u don't got.
treasure wad u got.

So meeting dearest tmrw.yey!
nk nenok bedtime storiess.weee[:
well i do admit im starting to miss schl already
can't wait for e jan 09
*fingers crossed*

wells there's ntg much to update niwayss..
Oh yea.
classmates of mine.
let's plan an outing yea[:
& azura..biler mau g sentosa?
beep aku yerr.mwaaaacks!

2009-01-03T23:56:00.002+08:00

Welcoming 2009.
2008 was one hell of a rollercoaster ride for me..
i went thru most of my darkest moments alone..

I had probs with school..
studiess ..
friendss..
family..
& relationship.

All these probs tested my patience & strength
i admit.
i nearly gave up halfway thru
but im grateful dat i managed to pull through it all
DESPITE
how unfair life was treating me
but i took it all as a blessing in disguise

Today A.din had his wedding
thinking back
i feel dat time flies by so fast
& when i recall the memories we had as a family
it was PRICELESS.

Now comitting myself in a relationship..
is already a BIG test for me..
never once did i believe dat i cud ever see myself in a rlthshp anymore
but dearest love [Razkal]
his sincerity won my heart.
B if really one day we have to part ways
just remember this.
u made a diff in my life.
u are & always be special to me.

& to my parents
*though they dun read this*
I knw i've hurt & lied countless of times
but from e bottom of my heart
i really do love u bth..

2009-01-02T15:24:00.002+08:00

My condolonces to amysar's brother.
May u rest in peace.
He passed away due to motorbike accident.
yesterday morning.
yet another motor accident.haisk.

I really don't feel like encouraging dearest to take lesen motor anymore
he's taking his practs now
actually he has driving license already
but u knoww..
nk beli kereta mahal..
nk tanggung pon mahal.
b u tkya ambek ape2 lesen la..
ape2 we naek public transport ok
*smileees*

K la..heading to aunt's house in a bit
I hate having periods la..
blaaaaah ~ *

2008-12-31T18:11:00.003+08:00

OLA OLA OLA..
i miss updating..
ok..so im back frm mysia
bz with wedding prep [abg din's]
this sat will be e event[:

today countdown!
too bad im styg at home..
niways im just too tired.
& yes looking foward to 2009
let's hope for a better year yaa.

oh yea..
received a call frm dearest office..
i rejected coz i was bz..
thn i tried to call back..
but his hp mati..

of coz i panick-ed.
guess wad?
dearest love accident.
alermak ni budakk..
cari nahas jerr.
pantat ade cacing
tktao duduk diaaam!
now he's sleeping
kesian dier pening
rest well k cyg!

oh yeaa..
checked e website
& found out dat
mayb e release of olevel results
wud be as early as jan 09!
seram seejok jerrr

2008-12-26T13:30:00.004+08:00

Back with another post.
so yesterday plan turn out cockup at ferst
met don,mia,kim hock & lily over at tamp
all e couples were having a tiff

naseb me & dearest tkde pape ey b
so after things cleared up..
headed to ecp..
bbq pit ade bdae celebration

da lamer tk jumper ko lily
dpt gak lepaskan rindu.wakaka.
ape beb.ko da gemok ey?
lols.jk2

soo...
ate ate ate
thn left ard 7pm
bus-ed home with dearest
& had to part ways with e rest
headed to bedok & chilled

& thn back home by 9[:
thks cyg for e wonderful day
gonna miss u!!
miss ur hugs&kisses esp

Pssst ;
cyg..im sorry i won't be ard on our 1mthsarry =(
i promise i da alek we spend more time togetha k
we go watch bedtime story!ok?
hehehe..loveee u bangeeeet!
MWAAAAAAAAACKS!

2008-12-23T12:00:00.002+08:00

So im feeling much better today
tmrw maybe heading out to ice skating
before dat plan to meet dearest love.
see how things goes

im sick man
down with flu,cough & my voice is changing
b sorry for yesterday
but at least bth of us come clean ryte

nw im feeling hungry
mane abg aku ni!!
adk tga laparr.hahaha
chatting with dearest azura ryte now
miss ya la beb!
meet soon k !
terkejot gegerl biler ko sms aku tga2 mlm.
& yes i agree sey bal..
budak2 e5 shud meet soon
miss korang bangeeeet!

2008-12-19T23:04:00.009+08:00

Indon pics[:
enjoy!
limited pics coz luper nk snap pics

[ fat ikan koi.they are seriously so fat]

[me&sis at hotel balcony]

[volcano at puncak.freaking cold]

[mummy&dad]

[picking fresh strawberries ]

[lastly kampong daun]

2008-12-17T19:12:00.004+08:00

[while otf with dearest love over at jakarta]

Baby im back!
five days in indon finally over[:

well i did have a blast
shopping spree all e way
managed to get myself ...
tanktops..babyphat hoodies & LV wallet!

well i missed dearest love alot..
since e ferst day i was already missing him
i was so happy when i got to contact him after e third day!
dpt juga aku dgr suara dierrr....
tkya la dgr e recorded version of him.
hehe.yes i when to e extend to secretly record his voice ..
during one of our latenights phone calls.
i miss him dat much ok!hmss..

baby im sorry if i made u worried."
i was so sad to hear dat u was so stress while i was away
sometimes i feel like a useless gf u know..

i can't even take care of u
i always make u worry..
pls don't think negative tots ok..
iloveu&onlyu[:

yea i also had weird dreams..
about u& uknow who..
& u lak..e opposite..
i must have been tinking too much too.

meet soon k baby!
i missssu!!
ur hugs&kissses.
mwaaaaacks!

& good luck to e n level candidates tmrw
esp lily&dearest mimin !

2008-12-12T20:32:00.004+08:00

[b..i curik dari profile u.jgn marah.hehehe]

Tmrw im leaving for Indon already
gonna miss dearest <3s
sorry b won't be ard on our 1mthsary
so odd.im like away most of e time
& only we get to spend little time togetha

can't wait to meet u later
i miss u already
can't imagine 5days straight w/o even contacting
u take care of yourself k dear
mwaaaacks!

k enuff of e loveydovey
today accompanied mum shopping
she had so much stuff to shop
& me i was like her bag carrier.
haha..how fun
but still i did managed
to find myself new shoes & a black top
plus foood [:
k la.
im gonna snap2 loads of pictures when in indon
miss me ya!hehe

2008-12-11T22:43:00.002+08:00

Hectic Hectic Day
Kecoh la niari..
Dearest gave me a wake up call
but i slept again =x
sorry b.i ngtk sgt.

Thn e rest of e day..
it was filled with hindustan songs & dances
smpi pening sey kepala
just telan-ed penadol.

now in my head asyik2 teringat..
lagu you are my soniya
Dekha Tum Ko Jabse
Bas Dekha Tum Ko Yaara
Tum Se Koyi Achcha
Hai Na Tum Se Koyi Pyaara
You Are My Soniya
Keh Do Na Keh Do Na
You Are My Soniya

haha ok.enuff of daat
im starting to miss my cousins over at mysia
i bet mimin does too ryte.
cnfrm punyer.ahaha

oh wellss nk pack2 brg for sat
gg indon.
remember?hahaa
so long readers
mwacccks*

2008-12-10T21:10:00.007+08:00

A day out with dearest love was fun[:
bus-ed down to woodlands.
since dearest complain ckp asyik die je turon bedok..
cramped sak kaki duduk jerr dlm bus
but e trip only took 30mins+

met teros head to kfc.
ape lagy!makan laa[:
sedap ok..
thn headed to buy bubble tea..
only too bad kena tarik psl tkley bwk masuk tgk wayang
how sad.
went in e cinema empty handed.ferst time w/o food.
we caught BOLT.
it was funny la..esp e hamster ey b.hehe

thn headed to tamp bought more food =x
yeaa..gemok jgk nti my cyg kalo ari2 keluar ngn i
ok after all dat headed back to bedok & chilled
sat with my lovely cat.claw <3

well in all i had fun dearest
meet u soon again k..
once im back from indon k cyg
loveusomuch.
ok la!im outs . wanna eat kitkat.

2008-12-09T14:54:00.005+08:00

Sweetays im back!
Back frm kl & kuantan

Hujan all e way there..

non stop rain.flu pun dtg.

Well e wedding event at kl was kecoh

pusing2 satu kl just to find e place.
funny but it was fun though[:
the hotel was nice & big[:
well there's some pic.
will upload it soon'

e stay at kuatan was boring
gosh e mat2 & pakcik semua gatal

da gian sgt gaknye.really.haha
stkt g kedai ngn pakai burok2 pon nk kaco
some are even tue kerapot.
tk tgk cermin gaknyer.haha

but e stay was not too boring

since there lil baby hanif & e kids.
some pics to end this entry.

nxt heading to indon by sat!

2008-11-28T12:31:00.003+08:00

Im feeling better nowadays[:
i tink finally im picking up e pieces to move on
wippeee ! good for me hah.

had a long talk with razkal yesterday
i feel better now actuallly
well..let nature takes its course thn..

its raining over here in bedok
sis is out
mum is busy otf..
& im feeling bored & hungry
there's absolutely ntg to munch at home
sis is leaving for kl tmrw
& im leaving sat morning
early morning ard 4am[:
can't wait.

planning to buy mysia pp8
i'll see how since im gonna be free most of e time
& once im back frm mysia

i wanna change[:
just stick to one like how i used to be

& i promise u k razkal
im gonna be a changed person once im back
someone better.like how i was when we ferst knl
*winks*

2008-11-27T22:30:00.003+08:00

Im bored
K la.
dpt tau dat someone att
admit la yang sort of saket ati
guess i still got some part of him still left in my heart
mayb dat;s why i still keep his stuff & necklace
tkpela..must sty strg i guess
since he can move on...
i must too..hmss..
only my my little heart knws wad i feel.

i wanna move on.
seriously i need to
but sometimes its tough
but i'll have to give it a go again

like nad says..

We ignore the ones who ADORES us ,
adore e ones who IGNORES us ,
love e one who HURTS us ,
hurt e ones who LOVES us

this thing is very true
like how i feel ryte now

wad a small werld
dpt tau my msn friends most of it are razkal's camp mates
k la.wanna end this post here

2008-11-27T20:43:00.002+08:00

Watching taufik batisah kat tv.
cutee!
mataer aku taw.jgn kaco*lols*
cute kan dierr tkley luper dat time kan ecp
ahh cairr*

kk ppl who knw about e necklace im wearing
jgn tegor k..tk sengajer pkai
nothing more to it k[:
esp wawa.panjat gegel biler die tegor smlm
da due org tegor ni.
i really need to buy a new necklace

Im leaving for kl soon
tmrw midnite for sure
1 week coz im styg over with lovely cuzzies

thn alek jer how many days later gg to indon
5 days!enjoy ke pa!
just can't wait[:

Razkal is taking his motor pracs ryte now
best of luck yerr!jgn jatoh tau
nti ppm2 semua ketawakan =P

can't believe it
Abg din is finally married
Kak Zub is pregnant
Kak Dd is a mother now
times flies so fast
seems like only yesterday
sitting ard playing UNO.haha
can't forget those memories

k la gtg do some packing
tcckairess*

2008-11-26T21:15:00.007+08:00

Eeqal[ss] . Wawa[pasrah] . Leena[normal]
[ Wawa & Leena]

[Leena & Ina]

[ Girlfriends]

Plan today was lepak2
met zul & ina ferst..
thn met e others at simei..

only lepaked for awhile
coz i had to accompany wawa meet eeqal
thn ina also wanted to leave
so we headed to TM

thn ina went to meet her friend
so me & wawa met eeqal
headed to bugiss
bt still din get e things he wanted

thn back to bedok
they teman-ed me mkn
coz i was so damn hungry
1 whole mc chicken meal sak mkn sorang
tk pelawa . woooops!

ok la i was kecoh
smpi e guys & girls tk thn ngn aku.haha
tapi kalo jumpe razkal
teros senyap mcm tikus

kenapa ey u?
u ade letak spell ey kat i?haha

K la
kecoh la ni due lovebird
gtg!ade hal sikit
*mwaaaaacks*

2008-11-25T13:54:00.002+08:00

So yesterday ren called me up
u can be counsellor eyss

all e way he kept giving me suggestion to my probs
i appreciate it fren[:

esok gg lepak with e guys
like sakai saed
"ni la aru nye kater tk lupe kwn"
yes i agree.korang la plg baek i've kwn

Nana&Wawa pon da bz kerja
esok wawa off

hope she can join in lepak skali
Nana's bdae is coming soon
& i've yet to find e perfect present[:

Razkal's bdae too
i still remember ok

bth korang nye bdae i won't be ard

so sad.tapi tkperr

stil i love krg k!hehe

K la ntg much to update abt niwayss
friday will be my last update[:

2008-11-24T20:29:00.002+08:00

im back

went out but decided to go home

sorry yea zul

i just cannot handle my emotions

mood spoil uhs

haisk

i got mixed feelings ryte now

but most of it is like disapointed

really dissapointed.

wad to do ryte..

im like getting use to it already also
its part of my fault too
erk kla too much info i tink

chatting with ren&chucky

sorry yea ren i will be gg overseas
meet another time k

2008-11-24T11:51:00.002+08:00

Im back sweetays!
but i will be gg off again on friday[:
can't wait.gg off to kl

well..
im very disappointed actually
after getting to know e truth
e truth hurts.but im learning for it
k la.tukar topic!
da malas nk fikir2 agy

& to kechik
i dunno if u still read my blog
but thks

The wedding event kat mysia
was so e kecoh
pics will be up soon
i was kendarat cum photographer
& i even fell while walking
haha..
in all it was a fun one[:

k la.
i wanna kill time
wanna ctch up with my reading

On hiatus

2008-11-18T16:08:00.003+08:00

Finally bck frm a haircut
& i feel lighter!i loike~
bought some new nail polish
& had my fav food!
nasi ayam penyet[:
sedap woiii.hehe

4 more hours & im off to mysia
goodbye ppl
when i will be back?

*shrugs shoulders*
i really have no idea
but b4 13th of nxt mth..
coz nxt im heading to indon..
can't wait to go on shopping spree!
haha.semua kat situ murah
i loikeee.

soon one by one my cousins will be migrating to mysia
i really wonder how's life gonna be there

& seriously my skin is sensitive to e water there
too much chlorine i guess?

k la..watching lilo&stich.hehehe
my last update thn
will be on hiatus till 13th december[:

2008-11-17T12:57:00.002+08:00

Gonna give this survey a try since..
Lyn kecyk & Elfiewancicak asked to..

1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!* 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about Leena

1. im known for my very small feet...yes very small indeed
its e size of like a guy's whole palm
yes dat small.i've been using e same schl shoes since sec 1 till now[:

2. if u really know me dat well ..

u wud notice a small black dot on my left 4th finger*beside e pinky*
a mole?i dunno coz it grew only when i was in pri6.lols

3. after eating..esp after a heavy meal..

my boncetness is like very obvious
i swear i look pregnant after a really heavy meal.lols

4. i use to have a habit to wake up ard 3 or 4am..
just to eat oreo!hahaha.skrg da tkder agy.heee

5. I like to sleep with my belly exposed
why?i dunno i always find myself waking up like dat

6. i used to only like one drink
& guess wad.its plainwater[:
now my first fav drink its rootbeer.slurrps*

7. i hate noodles..hate hate hate
but weird thing i love maggi mee.hehe.

8. im afraid of heights
i can't even climb e overhead brige w/o holding on tight to e railing
i once even got stuck at bugis junction stairs..
i din even move a muscle coz i was so scared
e stairs is like too steep for me.smpi my cousins had to pull me up.
lols.

9. im very hard to please when it comes to liking guys

10. im scared of dragonflies & lipas!yucckss!

10 people that I want to tag to do this *
*anyone whom is interested*

2008-11-17T12:42:00.002+08:00

Tmrw's e BIGDAY!
heading to mysia already
conferm kecoh nyer..
with all e wedding preps & stuffs
plus,i miss hanging out with my dearest cousins

I haven't even start packing my stuffs
kinda lazy u noe
& im getting sleepy
plus its raining outside
my bed is calling me already.haha!

Suddenly lots of my msn pals tegor-ed me
when i changed my pm to
"friendster sux.hah"
lols.satu2 agree complaining their number of friends are decreasing
i just visited friendster agn..
& there's like a notice saying
friendster lost its memory due to e great number of users
and the friends in ur acc will re-appear soon enough
claiming dat things will be ok by 24hrs
haha.24hrs kebabai..da 3 hari friendster under maintanance.
lols.

k la can't be bothered much
friendster will always be friendster
aslkan i still have my blog[:

2008-11-16T11:47:00.003+08:00

Demam da baeek..woohoo!
but my eyes are burning
slalu gnie tau kalo tk tdo
eik i mean tdo for a short while only
i only had like 3hrs sleep

Congrazt nana,wawa & lily
at last krg dpt kerja gak eys
lols as for me?
im a lazybum.so im gonna sty at home
& aniways my schedule is so packed
& i won't be ard in spore

gonna do my hair tmrw before i go
met razkal just now
had a good time
but i was more of sleeping..
sleeping but not soundly coz dat someone drives too fast -_-"
hahaha.da la aku tk kai seatbelt
tk sayang nyawa sak
tk ambek gmbr lagi seyss.
wasted.
& im nt even sure if we can ever meet agn..
tkpela..i will always remember someone like u razkal[:
no matter wad happens*
& im sorry i din tok much yesterday

k la.i need a rest
2more days im off
when i will be back?
only God noes..[:

2008-11-15T11:19:00.003+08:00

Im having high fever ryte now
40degree actually
Hmss..yea i shud be sleeping
but my mind is so jam-packed with thoughts &qns i cnt answer
HAISSSSSK

Yesterday i had a lil chat with dearest mimin;cousin
i din expect myself to cry so hard
i've kept everything inside..
& letting it go waas much more painful dat i tot it wud be..
she said im a strong girl
but u know wad..im nt strg anymore..
i can't handle it all alone anymore...

I dunno why things turn-ed out like dat last night

Now im having a headache thinking if wad i did was right
i never felt so weak like this 4 a long long time
now i feel like a complete LOSER
i completly lost this "battle"
im a liar but i can't lie to myself

i dunno wad to do nxt
i guess its best i just keep myself low
haiss..having a terrible headache
feels like my head is gonna split into two any moment

gosh i cannt stop myself frm crying
i cried myself to sleep yesterday
ppl who knw me..wud knw im stronger den this
but somehow i cnt handle all of this..

im sorry..

2008-11-14T10:27:00.002+08:00

So tdy heading to aunt's house agn

gonna help out with e wedding preparations
4more days & im heading to mysia

gonna get a haircut
rimaaas !
dye rambot?nt sure yet
mum says ok.but im having second tots

Im feeling so restless&worried bout sumting
tkpela..im nt gonna turn to anyone for help
buang maser jer..

so wad im gonna do?
sty strong agn.im gonna go thru this alone
actually..
i grew alot frm e past mistakes..
move on frm ur mistakes but never forget it[:

Chatting with lily
yea i understand beb how u feel
tapi seriously.i've learnt alot from these kinda guys
dun trust them..most of them are stmf
so we gotta be strg.coz we ain't losers

k la nk siap2
heading out ryte now[:

2008-11-12T20:11:00.004+08:00

Ok so i was bored surfing e net
so i decided to watch youtube
& look wad i found .

More on youtube
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U0X2rbfF1n0&feature=related

2008-11-12T14:45:00.003+08:00

4 yrs of friendship. i treasure her.she knws me best.

i really neeed to take things slow
& does so does she(nana)..patience is key syg
soon things will be fine.trust me[:

Sometimes i wonder..
why are girls losers when it comes to love
we give all of ourselves just for a guy
a guy who we believe is e ONE
but things will always end up being e same
or mayb juz coz we're still young
so things won't really work out ?

but satu pesan to girls outthere
no matter how hard u believe he is the ONE
ok la mayb if btl2 if korang ade jodoh pon..
pls pls pls don't ever offer ur body just to satisfy his needs
if he realy loves u..he won't be asking for any of it.
coz he shud be willing to wait for e perfect moment
trust me.
coz i've seen & heard alot
yes its is happening & has happened

no matter how long u are with him
or how niice he treats u....
u tink he will stick by u in ur darkest momments?
well..u're wrong.really
esp if u're dting guys e same age or w/o work
coz he can just walk out frm ur life just like dat
but really agn..its all up to u to make e decision
u decide & bear e consequences

but love doesn't matter e age
my dad&mum dated since they were 16
& look now they have 3 kids & hapily together
but yea of coz they were matchmaked
zaman2 dulu katerkan ..

A great example .
SitiNurhaliza & Datok K .
it says it all [:

aytes !
wanna have lunch
update soon preetays *

2008-11-12T00:17:00.008+08:00

*alyph say i look diff in this pic.ckp tk kenal aku lagy.lols!*

So tdy had a blast!
thks gf(s) for e day
so basically i went out with nanadearest & wawasyg [:

I wonder-ed how long its been since we 3 went out
& oh its been like too long to remember.heh

I ate alot
yes alot.so i became hyper.
hyper-ed by milkshake.lols

wawa pon samer
jangkit

actually there 's more pic la
but ttl 98!gile keper
tkkan nk upload semua gmbr kat sini kan

sooo..sikit2 pun jady la k
lols.hot topic for e day
kucing naik teksi
anjing naek bus
babi naik mrt
haha * inside joke*
winks2 kat wawa&nana '

Have another outing soon yea
sentosa perhaps
*grins wide2* =D

2008-11-10T15:47:00.003+08:00

So tmrw marks e last paper for o'levels
*lets out a sigh of relief*
yes exactly!

thn i will be rarely here in singapore
By the 18th of this mth till i 22nd ..
i tink uhs..
i will be in mysia/ kuantan
wedding function for my abg sedara!
abg din & kak nurul..
yes time flies so fast
thn by 25th or sumting i will be in kl
also another function for my abg sedara&his wifetobe
since his wife has friends in kl

thn by the next mth..
ard 13th of december i will be off to indonesia
hahaha..harap2 i can make it on 7th

celebrate dat someone's bdae
pssst ; razkal..leena da tukar calender tau.yang of the 7th tu..hehex
u know i know.public dunno.

thn by nxt yr january
another wedding function in spore

so many events kan

yea i know

& also nt to forget nanabaybe nye b'dae
jom we go sentosa aytes ![:
can't wait *

2008-11-09T12:44:00.002+08:00

Im just not perfect yet
not perfect for a relationship
I really dun wanna loose this special friendship
this past mths
kwning u
getting close
it was fun
it was amazing
it was different
i duno why..
u make me happy
but im nt smiling like i used to
i dun wanna get involve..
in a rltship when im nt even close to perfect
i want to be e best gf if really we had something special gg on

I din expect things to turn out this way
i din expect for u to fall so hard for me
i din ask for this
i din want to rush things
now things are just too complicated
how i wish i cud pause time at e time when we were just friendss
happy w/o probs

but a e same time
i feel u're e ryte one
e one i can trust
e one who can make me realise dat nt all guys are e same
but why am i having such a hard time accepting u?

when all u do is make promises & u really meant it
u even proved it to me countless of times
instead im e one who is always breaking e promises

friends or more?

2008-11-08T14:20:00.002+08:00

I just can't forget
i can't forget e guilt i feel
e pain i went thru

i canot leave e past
i cannot run & hide anymore
i can't..i fake my smiles
im never really happy anymore
im changing
i desperately wan someone to pour all my feelings too

but nobody understands

how am i to feel better?

when e guilt is on me
when i feel im in e wrong
e pain i went tru is just too much for me to handle
i can't accept
i've learnt to move on
but this huge guilt never fades away

all i need is a little peace of heaven
i want to feel happy again
i want to feel e warmth i once feel

e feeling when i feel so secured...

2008-11-08T12:03:00.002+08:00

Its been ages since i last took pics with dearest sis
There u go
my lil siz;Zilah
She's e oppostite of me
she hates makeup
wherelse i love makeup&fashion
but still how annoying she is
i love her still.

Yesterday met Razkal<3
Actually i was tired uh
tapi bolehkan ajer.hehe
die pon samer.tipu org kate tk kerja
pffft '

U guys knw about e 7yr old connie talbot
i tell u she's amazing
admire her voice eversince i watched Britain got talent
here's a link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wjeNS4eLghc&feature=related

K la back to blasting loud music
cya guys ard!

2008-11-07T23:30:00.002+08:00

To LiLy & Rizal
Tkmu la gado aggy
though korang aru je kwn
i can see bth of u enjoy each other company
sooo!sng forget e mistakes & berbaek semula k
Be happy luhss !
pening taw aku ngn razkal tgk krg
jap baek.jap tk.
ape la krg
smile ok!

K la
just came back frm clarke quey
Penat!kaki ley patah taws
pusing satu singapore.
frm clare quey to city hall to raffles to marina to tamp
gosssh..
da lamer tk berjalan
skali jalan tkley thn!pnt nyee !

*pics will be uploaded soon*
im still nt sure if im gg azura's pit this sunday
even Jep pun ade pit kat saner
so shud i tag along with him?hmss
will consider i guess

K la
nk tgk cite ciner =P

2008-11-07T12:22:00.002+08:00

Woke up early tdy

terkejot biler dpt sms Razkal

imagine la he sms kul 8 pagy
tapi tkper..

bgn skjp reply his sms teros gone

Woke up ard 10.3o
Beep gdmrning to razkal

teros ke halau suruh g makan breakfast

sediy ke per.hahaa
tk la die tga bz driving dat time

kalo accident nti camnekan..
choi!mulut tk syg.hehe

susah nti.hahak

So nw chatting ngn shiiradevil
sal hantu..nyehahas..
kecoh..she pnh kena sampok..

haisk..seram sejok je aku dgr..

K la
jap agy nk g mandi2..siap2..
nk kua shopping
finally a bigbreak for me[:

2008-11-07T01:17:00.004+08:00

Tkder gmbr agik

so terpaksa korek2 gmbr lama2..
dat was 1yr ago

So i tdi bergntg jap ngns Razkal<3
he suro dgr lagu one step at a time

yea i agree with e lyrics

let's take things one step at a time

no rush[:

skrg tga dgr fm..

jj punyer

haha..so long since i masuk...
maken anyak budak baru

semua tk kenal

boringg*

k la i cnt sleep
guess im kinda try tire myself out tdy
chooows '!

2008-11-06T11:38:00.006+08:00

I miss the red purplish pink hair i used to have =[
haha..thks to fana die dye kan..
ley terbakar sak scalp dat time

memories..memories..wells..
shud i dye my hair after o's?hmsss
still having second tots bout it

k la..i tried to edit this gmbr

which was like...
2yrs ago?
b4 meething ahlod.
yes sape yg tau tu.diam2 ajer..
very stupid times..

so edited & i got this....

mcm over edited kan?
i dunno y.
i prefer e original version
oh wells

like boring tawws'
i dunno y but i kinda like malu2 nk carik2 razkal
though he can sms already -__-"
tkt die bz uhss..
so im just gonna wait till he beeps me thn

Chatting with Lily
she's doing blog
cnfrm otak tga stress nyee
& a friend of mine
who keeps complaining about life
haha.such a loser
WOOOPS~*
terslipt out.haha.

ok la!
nk mkn lunch.
update more later'

2008-11-05T22:49:00.003+08:00

Listening to
Britney Spears - Radar

Coz i got u on my radar. u make me tingle . make me wanna mingle
heee ~ *

Chatted with fifibelle
Kekek siol

gosh u make me pecah perot ok

with dat stupid emoticon

dat looks like &#%#
hahaha..kk biarla rahsia
I had a good laugh

baik2 bored.u made my night!haha

So now im feeling tired

coz of e constant laughing since just now

Haiiyaa
i feel so restless doing ntg -_-"

2008-11-05T14:35:00.003+08:00

*deleted e gmbr for the sake of their muker kesian drg*

Hahaha...
first&foremost..
sorry rizal&razkal!
LOLS.ni keje lily okeee[:
ni la i suroh u tgk kat my blog i..
tu gmbr.cute kan.LOL!

just too funny luhs
kekekeks!
jgn maraaaaah

& tot of gg vivo

thn my mum bising!lols

nemind2 after o's i wanna enjoy!

at last mt paper done!
last paper to go nxt week

thn FREEEEEDOOOM!
haha.tk sabarr*

& BTW
happy sweet 16 to dearest titee & nad![:

2008-11-04T19:39:00.002+08:00

Today i gt no mood

I did sumting agn

Best ah..

kasih dier saket ati agy

tu sal aku ckp..

aku da lain skg

i dun trust myself

baek ah mazlina..

K la

im lazy for rlthshps.
haaaa ~ *

2008-11-03T22:40:00.002+08:00

Stress2..
tgk video ni kekek japs..

Wells i dunno la wad's gg on ryte now
we'll see how things goes..

& niwaes..
thks for e advices k wawa
had a fun time..
mepek2 ngn ko japs kat msn
BANGLA& VIETNAM per.ahahaha
ko ambek ah ko.
aku tk interested
HAIKPUIIK!

& before gg ss mepek2 ngn bal&emi jap kat msn
u guys r freaks.
but still i love u!awwW
hehehe.
k la esok fnn.killer paper!

2008-11-03T20:31:00.002+08:00

Haissssssssk..

nape ley jadi cm gnie ni..

i made e choice

tapi skrg aku stress

tkley fikir

i've tried to eat

but tkde selera

why why why?

i've tried to study

tapi tkley masok otak
arrrk!

dari tadi aku alek lum buka mulut bbl ngn sape2 pon

smpi adk tegor..

kak naper senyap.bbl pls!

haissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssk!

kenapa ley gini ='(

2008-11-02T12:15:00.002+08:00

Yesterday met Razkal<3
So how was it?
cnfrm LiLy nk tau nyer.
wakaka
well first2 die shy2 kucing
menyampah taws..
but lama2 he got used to me

but still ade la malu2 die sikit2

Part nk g interchange la menyeksakan
pusing pey pusing
& we din take any pics seys

syg..tkpela.nxt time aytes ?

overall thks for yesterday[:
i had fun'

& im so tired now.
naseb dabes blaja ss

kalo tk matii
i need some sleep now

2008-11-01T19:03:00.002+08:00

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

Lols.stuck with dat song;hot&cold.kate perry

thks to fana la..
yea aku tau lagu da lamer gak
so wad!pfft!
yes ketingalan zaman or wadever u call it

Abey aku bored!
semua tk on9!
semua sediy

semua ade prob

goossh! BORING

YEY!
On9 pun LiLy
tk fairrr rizal tdi kol dierr -_-"
si razkal tk gne uh!pp8 low

blueks =P

GAGAGAGAGA
mendaknyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =/

2008-11-01T13:17:00.003+08:00

Amcm cute tk?
yes dat e small version of me..
i was obsessed with roti prancis..

ah2! semua gmbr kecik2 dgn roti prancis -_-"
skg da tk minat sgt ah roti prancis.
niwayss...
mcm org ckp..kecik2 cute..da besar tk cute agy
Lols . sediy ke per
& yes mmg dari dulu my hobby was eating

Skg tgk..im still as tembam as b4..
but i miss my fair skin sey

dulu putih melepak..

now da tan sikit..i dun like ! hahaha .

& im still short -_-"
bile la saye nk grow =/
yea im very petite & its not a shocker la
my mum is like e same hgt as me..
imagine her during my age..
cnfrm ketot je.wakakaa.

& saye da topup pp8!
weeeehooo!
PMS sucks la...
kadang2 happy..
kadang2 boring..
kadang2 rase mcm nk carik psl je ngn sape2..
LOLS.

alone at home nw
Blasting full vol music now
Rihanna - Living ur life

shud i meet up my friends for awhile & chill?
hmsss..

2008-10-31T23:35:00.003+08:00

Yess we're back together now.

lols mcm matair lak ey wawa.lols
niways we did have fun ranting out our tots & all[:
& bbygurl i've forgiven u already luhs..
no worries k.

Currenly chatting with wawa & Lily
due2 ade probs
yea i agree la..
girls are losers when it comes to love.

sucks bigtyme ryte..

K LA..

niari aku nye official day off..
dari pagy smpi la mlm aku conquer ni com.

wakakaka.siak tols..

thn nobody stop me..so melampau ah sayer..wakaka.
i need to topup pp8 mans!

2008-10-31T12:09:00.002+08:00

Bruises & scars all over body.
haixx ..

Thks Lily & Razkal once again
Both of u been wit me since e start'
Im happy u din give up hope on me[:
thks for e help yesterday

I've gt nothing more to say
Except a thankyou

2008-10-29T17:47:00.003+08:00

I must say
i was a fool to believe
Yes i was..so now since things are clearer now
i know im better off w/o someone like him
oh yea.aniways thks for e" wonderful day".hah

Razkal thks again
for being there when i needed someone e most
this time i mean it
mcm tk cyr gtu ey..u're always there to rescue me
haha.mcm tau ajer :)
my superhero <3

My eyes are heavy now frm crying
its been 3mths since i last cried this bad
mata pon da muler ade eyebag
tangan pon tga saket2...
Hmss..i guess i've learnt a lesson
Leapord doesn't change its spots
Very true[:

K la .
looks like no turning back now'

2008-10-29T10:32:00.002+08:00

Why does it seems nobody seems to understand?

i've tried to make u guys happy..

by following ur advices

but LOOK!

im nt happy at all

im nt...

I need time

Dun rush me pls

i noe korang nk e best for me

but pls.give me time

i really need time

just once let me really tink through it

tkmu rush aku agy plssssssssssss!!!

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!

2008-10-28T11:08:00.004+08:00

Today's post is meant for my gfs

Firstly this is for u fana

Darls.i dunno wad is going on

but i hope u can get thru it soon

ard tis time i knw mayb u tink nobody understands u

but im here for u ok

sediy tau aku

tgk ko suffer mcm gnie

when are u gonna tell me evrything like dulu?

pls tell me u're ok
i love u darling!!!

Secondly this for u lily

Beb.i dunno dat ur past was still hunting u

i tot ko da ok.ko look so happy on e outside

aku tknk ko nanges lagyy

aku phm ape ko raser

tapi its a fact ko more stronger now ryte

sygkuu pls be happy

i know u can..jgn fikir2 lagyy

aku nk tgk e hyper lily yang ku kenall tuu

Last.

its for myself

thks korang2 yang tlg aku get thru all this

aku tau korang ckp kechik its nt worth my time

aku phm

aku appreciate korang nye tlg

esp Lily yang these past few days tlg aku anyak

i know wad to do lily..

i will do it soon b4 its too late

like u say

jgn loose such an oppurtunity
AKU SYG KO!!!!!!!

thksssss alot beb''

2008-10-27T17:16:00.004+08:00

Excuse the sleepy face of mine

aru agn tido dat time =x
Jep&Min.

My pillar of strength

the cuzzuns who i grew up with

i love them to bits&pieces[:

And i've finally come to a conclusion
I've to move on!
& try to accpt e new things in my life
i cnt simply keep avoiding them ryte?

Yes the past rlthsip was great
But it was also a bitter one i cnt 4get
If i start to believe in e past..
it might harm me ryte
& i dun wanna get hurt agn
i know u're trying to change
but mayb changing
won't heal e pain i went thru with u last time..

hmss..
so its time to pick myself up
and start to learn to face e truth
Mayb dat someone is really e one?
he's been there for me
for quite sometime now
actually for a few mths already
he went thru alot i tell u
frm the empty promises and dissapointments
but still he's still here.still waiting.
so mayb it was just me.
mayb i was e one making wrong decisions..

BUT WAIT!
Now its different.
i wanna try to acppt new things
i need to start afresh[: i need to change.
change for e better

im sure i can do it[:

2008-10-26T17:57:00.002+08:00

EH PLS LUH!

im so tired of this laaa

aku da cukup stuck

dun make me more confused laaa

nk sindir pon fikir uh

da baek2 semula.

ko nk kenakan aku

fck siaaa

mmg skrg salah aku

tpi ko suker sgt per uat aku raser bersalah

tkya nk ungkit2 uh

aku ckp aku will make a decison

phm2 je la

da penat ah gado!

GIVE UP XIAAA !

2008-10-26T17:26:00.003+08:00

This darling of mine

kecoh! kwn aku semua ko kenal
wad a small world.
but can't deny she's one hotstuff

K la..niari aku anyak nye pening tawss

Razkal marah ngn aku.HAIX =(
mmg salah aku pon.tsk

why i always disappoint him?

i dunno why..

things change arhh
u've been there alot

but its just me..=/

& to kechik..u know i know k

but thks for lending a listening ear

i will work things out.dun worry

and also not to forget

my lovely darling

Fana syg..i know u're gg thru a tough time now

but remember i will always be here..

to lend a listening ear & a shoulder to cry on as always

just dun keep it to urself for too long aytes?

cheer up baby!

2008-10-25T23:58:00.004+08:00

With lil sis away at mysia..
suddenly i feel lonely at home
noone to irritate me nomore.hahaha..

So this afternoon i was sleeping
but i just felt like waking up
rupe2nya fana darls wasn't feeling ok
she had a prob
till now she hasn't tell me e full story
well i hope u get ur mood back aytes gf
no worries i will always be here for u[:

Im still sick yea..
after taking all sorts of medication
im still down with flu & cough'
i've tried honey&warm water..
cough syrup..plain water..
pills..panadols.everything!!
such a bother'

Ok la i'll have to get back to sum stuffs'

2008-10-24T16:45:00.002+08:00

Since im feeling bored

here's another entry

Somehow i feel like im drifitng apart frm everbody

even fana darls

within the past 4 days im sick

i rarely cntcted fana/lily or razkal

mcm rindu plak kan!

fana darlss biler nk kua!!

ko da ader tmn sms si syawal teros luper aku.hehe

lolss.jk2 ajer..i miss u darling!!
plan an outing soon taws [:

& lily butterfly ko basketball.

da single tk lang.pfft.semua senyap2.

menyampah sak

k la.i wanna batheeeee

2008-10-24T15:21:00.003+08:00

Aww how i miss camwhoring!
Plans with LiLy mayb cancelled
she asked me out just now..
rupe2nye kua ngn tupaikia la..
wad a small werld :D
im so sick!& im still not well yet
da nk masuk 4 hari ni..gosh !

razkal la jadi doctor aku selama 4 ari ni..
hari2 mcm2 advice die bagy..
itu la dierr da biasa "saket"

Met e ex just now..yea kechik
i tink i was too harsh on him
but bagosla..at last he realised his mistakes
now all im hoping is he move on

YAWNSS*
now i need a nap!

2008-10-20T21:36:00.003+08:00

Taking a powerbreak ryte now
jst finish revising for maths&ss

Sat for chemisty paper 3 tdy
Otw to school someone called my name frm afar

rupe2 nye EEN or wad i knw her as Belo..
u look so diff now din recognise u[:

So how was the paper?

suprisingly..nt as tough as i expected it to be

manageable ah..hope i did ok..

Oh wells tmrw sitting for english
the time given is so freaking late

in the afternoon frm 2 - 6.46pm.

for bth paper 1&2
hope i dun get sleepy in e middle of it

k la.back to my citer ciner [:

2008-10-18T02:12:00.003+08:00

When i edited this pic
i meant what i wrote
darling fana.ntg will break my friendship with u

i love u too <3s

2008-10-17T11:38:00.003+08:00

My throat is getting dry
& im feeling sick
& im feeling worn out
oh great best timing yea
during o'levels aru nk tau sakeet'
chissh!

Now im caught in a situation
should i regret?haix

Having an outing with Lily Butterfly on the 27th
can't wait syg!
looking foward to an outing w/o distractions
this time kena petik gmbr anyak2[:

This feeling is killing me inside

trust noone

2008-10-17T01:06:00.004+08:00

E last time im gonna put on e attire..

Time goes on very fast to turn back nw

I've met many sorts of ppl

& learnt too much to even handle it all

Sometimes for e happiness of the people u love..

u will have to sacrifice ryte

i've decided to move on & put on a deaf ear

and even do all this for myself
All u both do is hurt me more each day

All u do is tink about urself

u thinks its so easy?
try being me.

i dun wanna lie anymore.im sick of pleasing ppl bt nt myself

2008-10-14T18:12:00.005+08:00

Back with another update
i know e song plays halfway
but here's some parts of the lyrics
i really can relate to it..

We've been through this a thousand times
And ive never been more sure than i am right now
Please dont say anything
Its just about that time
I guess its about time that im finally moving on
I dont really care if its right or wrong
And in spite of the way i love your touch
You know its gon be better for both of us
It hurts like hell but i gotto try

And you know its so hard loving somebody
I loved you so good baby you cant deny
You know this time that respect goes away
Let it fade away
And the only way to heal is to give me time and space

Tag replies:

fee: eu are relinked THOUGH EU DIDNT TELL ME TO! hmph. sedih seyy babe!
Me: Im sorry tk sengajer.i've linked u[:

khai: hmpph! tak bilang aku kau dah relink! hmph! gelare at maz.
Me : wooops ! sorry

hari: u look pretty :)
Me : oh thks yea.u are?

Gegerlbebey: Relinked. & Dont forget, nice layout bebey(:
Me : thks darls'

2008-10-14T17:00:00.005+08:00

Darlings who have found/stumbled upon my blog
sorry i din inform all of u
dun take it to heart yea[:
no hard feelings'
tidak sengajerrr

Wells so i had quite an early nite yesterday
coz someone tertdo while sms-ing =P
Had school early in e morning
ard 8.30..but only to know e time was brought foward to 10.30
baek ah..tngu 2 jam.
so had breakfast with fana sweetay
thn came khairul along with e others
headed to school & self studied for an hour
school ended at 12.40
thn again had a quick lunch over at mac'd[:

Thursday is e practical for o's
time flies too fast nowadays
FREEZE TIME PLSS!hahaha
ok no use complaining now.its too late to regret right.
so i just have to make do with it

Dedicating this song to myself[:

2008-10-13T16:56:00.001+08:00

After so long!
finally i had e time to make a new blog layout[:

Wells first&foremost..
im starting afresh
finally i have the courage to move on
after 2mths.im proud to say ..

IM BACK BABAY!
hahaha..yes i use to dread over e past
but now im happier this way
just friends with an
& im glad to know he's fine too[:
recently contacted him

tmrw there's school for me
& by 16 o'level starts
gosh time flies too fast
on the 10th we had graduation day..
i felt different.
for once i felt like im gonna miss e secondary days
esp e lovely friends

family?
there's ntg much i can do
my parents still have e same idea ..
yea they get sensitive & jump to conclusions
no matter who u are.closefriend or just friends
they will assume u're gonna harm me
or better still u're my bf.hah.
it happens each time a guyfriend calls me up or im chatting over at msn
tk kire la..ko classmate aku ke aper..
they will still tink u have other intentions of being my friend
gosh i hate how they tink..haisx
kalo gitu aku da anyak bf sak skrg
da ley label diri aku playgirl pon.hah!
haiss sometimes i feel like runnin away frm these probss

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